Tricky business

I'm feeling very nervous about criticizing US economic and military policy in my Peace Corps application. I'm applying to work for the government, after all. But when they ask why I want to serve I can't honestly answer any other way.

I'm also realizing that my relationship with being an American, which has gotten really painful in the past months, is only going to hurt more in the Peace Corps. That love-hate thing with my country is only going to intensify.

Cross your fingers for me?